standing aside to watch

-again ,i find myself locked in a cage.i am doing well where i am in some departments of my life but others i have to sacrifice.i'm stuck in a cocoon and sometimes i get restless.this is one of those times.

-i'm annoyed becouse things are costing more than they need to be,so buying decent acessories,and clothes is going to be a problem.i also don't want to force my parents to pay for me to go to the prom becouse i don't like recieving privilages,especialy if i didn't ask for it,it makes me feel undeserving and trapped.Along with that i need to buy art supplies so again,there is the choice between clothes,or art stuff,or make-up and i can't decide which is more important.i want to get a job,but then its hard to find any jobs.Also ,i just know i couldnt keep up with school and work together.....now i'm all depressed again...damn